lately i’ve been

eating pretty decent.  nothing extraordinary.  i’m just trying to keep it consistent.

eating mostly cereal for bkfast, med amt

drinking acai berry juice

eating wrap w/ tamboule and gorg warmed mostly

trying to include at least 1 banana

and drinking more water

After sleep

168.6
My lowest ever since my fatness of 2009. And to think- I was going to eat mcdonalds last night after class. Thank goodness I talked myself into just a sweet tea- and half of It at that, it was diluted too much.
I saw an interview once, where a woman said “it’s ridiculous to think u will lose weight and never go to sleep hungry. Of course you will be hungry”.
Well, I went to sleep hungry , and the scale is going down. I feel friggin great about it. Can’t wait to c more results.

So. Last night I also stayed up to study some Spanish. So now I feel like i’m at least accomplishing something with myself!

Intake:
Acai juice
Bowl cereal- honey bunches oats
Output- step class
Water

post leighanne’s class – my meatballs in red sauce, with melted mzz cheese; water
Geeze I really had no interest in eating after losing that extra lb! That’ll change, i’m sure, I’ll be struggling to put the fork down soon. I fucking hope not.
Whole grain quesadilla just chicken gorg and dip light oil and spices
Steak- porterhouse- overcooked. Never wait to someone to join u for dinner. Just fucking eat when you are ready!
With steak sauce. So dry. Hated it.
Water.
Dessert- jello pudding cup 80 cals.

Bad mood all around. I WAS fine till H kept me waiting- now it’s 9 pm and i’m 2-3 hours late. I fucking hate everything. Oh and then got an annoying codependent email. Really cannot deal with anyone anymore. I give up.

There’s an island. And i’m on it.

169.2

When iwant to detox- it’s the same as just not eating quite so much.

I’m back below 170– let’s keep it this way. Let’s keep getting smaller.

Goal 1- weigh 160
Goal 2- weigh 150
Goal 3- weigh 140
Goal 4- weigh 130
This is baby steps, I know, but it’s got to start somewhere. Goal 5- 120???!!!!??!?!

Omg I would look so f’ing hot at 120!

Eats

Cereal- honey bunches oats reasonale amount
Spin class
Wrap w ckn n gorg
Burger bun ketchup
coffee
Z bar 140 cals
Was that all I had today? No wonder i’m f’ing hungry!!???!
Iced tea sweet

I’ve been all talk

And it’s sickening.
I want to learn espanol.
I want to lose fat.
I want to put the fork down, say no to carbs, and just eat clean already. I just need to stop allowing myself to…be lazy.
If I always do what I’ve always done; I’ll always get what I’ve always got.

Ugh. Stop it!!