I Just Want to Live Healthier

Eats nov 22

Lexie — Mon, 23 Nov 2009 08:52:00 +0000

Eats nov 22
Gr turkey eggs
Salas honey must bac bits chkn carrots
Tea diet hot
Granola bar sweet n salty
Chilis:
Chips
Queso
Nachos
Ribs, 1/2 rack
Fries
Paradise pie share
Coffee

Eats saturday

Lexie — Sun, 22 Nov 2009 00:04:26 +0000

Eats saturday

Egg and gr turkey, ketchup
Tea
Coffee 1 cup from work
Coffee small starbucks- like a million calories
Salad, chicken, bac bits, honey must, carrots
Coffee, 1 cup
Blt
Crackers n hummus like 12 saltines
Thera flu

And i’m full. And sad because I thought I was all looking hot and guess what- the scale reads 171.4. I wanted to throw up. Not really, because I know my clothes have been fitting better. So it’s what-
muscle? I’m gaining muscle faster than i’m losing lbs?? I don’t want to concentrate on losing lbs because then I get sad and obsessive- but really? UP in lbs!?? So not fair.

lately i’ve been

Lexie — Wed, 14 Oct 2009 19:37:03 +0000

eating pretty decent. nothing extraordinary. i’m just trying to keep it consistent.

eating mostly cereal for bkfast, med amt

drinking acai berry juice

eating wrap w/ tamboule and gorg warmed mostly

trying to include at least 1 banana

and drinking more water

After sleep

Lexie — Fri, 02 Oct 2009 13:02:45 +0000

168.6
My lowest ever since my fatness of 2009. And to think- I was going to eat mcdonalds last night after class. Thank goodness I talked myself into just a sweet tea- and half of It at that, it was diluted too much.
I saw an interview once, where a woman said “it’s ridiculous to think u will lose weight and never go to sleep hungry. Of course you will be hungry”.
Well, I went to sleep hungry , and the scale is going down. I feel friggin great about it. Can’t wait to c more results.

So. Last night I also stayed up to study some Spanish. So now I feel like i’m at least accomplishing something with myself!

Intake:
Acai juice
Bowl cereal- honey bunches oats
Output- step class
Water

post leighanne’s class – my meatballs in red sauce, with melted mzz cheese; water
Geeze I really had no interest in eating after losing that extra lb! That’ll change, i’m sure, I’ll be struggling to put the fork down soon. I fucking hope not.
Whole grain quesadilla just chicken gorg and dip light oil and spices
Steak- porterhouse- overcooked. Never wait to someone to join u for dinner. Just fucking eat when you are ready!
With steak sauce. So dry. Hated it.
Water.
Dessert- jello pudding cup 80 cals.

Bad mood all around. I WAS fine till H kept me waiting- now it’s 9 pm and i’m 2-3 hours late. I fucking hate everything. Oh and then got an annoying codependent email. Really cannot deal with anyone anymore. I give up.

There’s an island. And i’m on it.

169.2

Lexie — Fri, 02 Oct 2009 10:46:39 +0000

When iwant to detox- it’s the same as just not eating quite so much.

I’m back below 170– let’s keep it this way. Let’s keep getting smaller.

Goal 1- weigh 160
Goal 2- weigh 150
Goal 3- weigh 140
Goal 4- weigh 130
This is baby steps, I know, but it’s got to start somewhere. Goal 5- 120???!!!!??!?!

Omg I would look so f’ing hot at 120!

Eats

Lexie — Fri, 02 Oct 2009 03:46:07 +0000

Cereal- honey bunches oats reasonale amount
Spin class
Wrap w ckn n gorg
Burger bun ketchup
coffee
Z bar 140 cals
Was that all I had today? No wonder i’m f’ing hungry!!???!
Iced tea sweet

I’ve been all talk

Lexie — Thu, 01 Oct 2009 17:23:17 +0000

And it’s sickening.
I want to learn espanol.
I want to lose fat.
I want to put the fork down, say no to carbs, and just eat clean already. I just need to stop allowing myself to…be lazy.
If I always do what I’ve always done; I’ll always get what I’ve always got.

Ugh. Stop it!!

170.0 again

Lexie — Tue, 29 Sep 2009 03:12:03 +0000

today i said to my trainer, i want to lose fat…make it happen. then he gave me another run down of what i’m supposed to eat. and for all of one hour i was convinced i would listen.

and then the day happened, and i proved i coudl not.

intake:

groupnd beef n egg whites, ketchup

workout w/ trainer plus 30 cardio 10 before, 25 after 10 step 18ish (1mile) treadmill … ok a lil more than 30 total

5 garlic knots, 1 slice bread dipped in oil n spices

1 grilled ckn wrap w/ ranch dressing

nap. for forever.

dinner – water, subway blt, chips baked lays

Fatness

Lexie — Sat, 26 Sep 2009 02:53:00 +0000

I feel fatty again. Because I am.

In
Yogurt
Water
Acai juice
Egg gr beef ketchup
Eggplant wrap gorg
6 in subway sub- grill ckn
1 bag baked lays

No ex
Watched a show
Need to walk the line. Sooo sloppy.

It’s a hard balance

Lexie — Wed, 23 Sep 2009 18:10:11 +0000

Because in the end, i’m a student, i’m a houswife, i’m someone who wants to red the newspaper and a couple of great books, i’m interested in the world and fixing it…and i just don’t know how. and i also want to be selfish and have a great physique and concentrate on ME. It’s a hard balance. it’s really hard. And i just don’t know how well I’m doing…